It's been just about 6 weeks since we came home from our Cross-country trip and I have yet to get back in the studio.
I wrote that at the beginning of October. Returning to art practice ... any practice really... after a long hiatus is difficult. Made even more so when you're being told ... and telling yourself.... the best remedy is to Just Do It, act as if, fake it 'til you make it. Doubly hard when feeling like a giant failure, not worthy, what's it all for anyway. And yet. One's saving grace really is getting your hands dirty, pretending that the work is enough, and you really are worth the effort.
I have been in the studio.
I've even finished some things I like.
But I still haven't got my groove back.
Until then. I'll put my grotty apron on, swish paint around and make big ol' messes. Y'know. Practice.
