I've been sick for what seems like years.
Though in reality it has been weeks.
And my ability to do quality work isn't happening ... doing more harm, than good.
I wonder how many artists go through this? When we are our own worst enemy ... wanting to be productive, showing up just like we're supposed to, thinking we are pushing ourselves.
I have made some seriously horrible stuff when I've been in that headspace.
And rather than acknowledge that 'today is not that day' and walk away? I keep wrecking stuff.
Oh! The humanity!
Maybe because we are afraid that what we are confronting is our ineptitude and if we just keep pushing, we'll move through. Or perhaps instead of listening to our inner voice ...the inherent gut instinct... we rely on popular sentiment and think we aren't working hard enough or fast enough or we simply aren't enough.
So we keep bashing our head against the wall.
And we really do know that it's utter crap.
And we really should just ... STOP.
But we don't.
Bash.
Bash.
Bash.
All photos are previous Works In Progess [wips].